Moving For My Sanity & Health
Feeling really inspired lately. I’m officially in training mode. I’m learning what it means to train my body for performance endurance vs. training my body to be smaller. This has always been a trigger point for me in dance/theatre anything. Reminding myself every time I step into movement, of any kind or even as I think about how I am making adjustments to my meal planning, to keep my intention in mind. I simply want to feel like an athlete. I want to feel sexy in the body I have right now. I want to use my dance as a sacred space to let go. .
I’ve hesitated for a long time to try to engage this conversation around wellness and being body affirming/liberating because I did not want to offend or hurt anyone. However, in my silence I’ve just grown disconnected from the conversations altogether and that doesn’t feel active or empowering. So I’ve got to find a balance. I know the best place to start as @remixyourstyle talks about is to #speakfromyourownexperience. .
So here is my experience:
1. I am a Black Woman
2. I weigh somewhere around 280-300 lbs
3. I dance regularly
4. I was diagnosed with high blood pressure before the age of 30
5. My Father, Grandfather and Great GrandFather (?) (on my father’s side) died from complications with diabetes,hbp and kidney failure.
6. My blood pressure has been near stroke level within the last 10 years.
Combining these factors I personally cannot ignore my weight,what I eat or my level of endurance. I want a strong heart and a long life. Somehow my genes weren’t setup to thrive like that without intentionality. I have struggled with owning this story. I fought taking high blood pressure medicine because it made me feel like I had failed. But the longer I resisted the more I was in discomfort.
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Love this song Drip x @iamasiahn 🦋
Video by @remixyourstyle
Photo by Cindy Johnson Boudoir Photography